Its been a year since I came to Mindvalley. Am I happy?

I was about to say I don’t know. It really is a subconscious thing that I’m doing but now that it’s been brought up to my attention, I am starting to catch myself with this more often.

I do know if I’m happy and I am happy about a lot of different things. I’m happy to be living here at pacific place. I’m happy to be learning a new role under the advertising team. I’m happy to have been given SB. I’m happy to find inefficiencies that I can improve. I’m happy with the creation of money 101. I’m happy with the people out of MV I’m starting to meet more of. I’m happy that I got to go travel for 2 months (although I wasn’t happy that I had a feeling of not doing anything productive). I’m happy that I climbed Mount Kinabalu (and not happy that something within changed after). I’m happy with the progression of my spiritual journey and am excited to go on my first Aya experience.

I’m not happy about my feelings of outsourcing and not wanting to just jump right in, as if I have a block when it comes to giving out money. Although I’ve met some cool people, I’m not too happy with where I am in finding a partner, or at least someone that I highly respect and sleep with on a regular basis. I’m not happy about all the muscle I lost during the week after Kinabalu. Even now I feel like my stomach is a lot more sensitive and the worst part is I don’t know what it’s sensitive about. I’m also not happy with the way I’m waking up these days. I sometime feel like I’d be better off without an alarm but then I feel like I won’t be able to get anything done in the morning.

So given all that, I am mostly happy and I know it. Of course things can be better, I can structure learning time more. I can learn salsa now. I can be pumping out 2-3 high quality SEO pieces. I can record myself and put it out there.

The only place I don’t think I can go much faster is at work. But as I write that I feel like I’ve set a limit upon myself.

The thing that has really determined how fast I get things done is being very clear on what I need to get done and be given the space to make it all happen. Clarity in the sense that I know what the end result should look like and how that plays a bigger role to my life. The space being a quiet place that I can just churn out deep work.

I really like how deep work was happening the last two weekends. The goals I set were done in 90 minute intervals and I did feel like I was at my limit after 90 minutes. After that, even though I try to get in a short break, it tends to be a longer one. But then I’m able to get in another 90minute sprint. And even though there was a whole day, the 4-6 sprints I got in was equivalent to days, if not weeks of work otherwise.

So maybe the question isn’t about being given the time. I have the time. I have the time every morning to get in a 90min sprint easily. I have the ability to work from home. And I have the ability to get in another 90min sprint after work. Probably not enough for two though.

So if I can get in 2 90min sprints for my own thing and another 2 sprints at work, then over the course of a week, I should be blowing my weekly goals out of the water. Of course, that also assumes that the nights are all for sprints, which they aren’t. Mon and Tues are simply to get my thoughts focused on one bigger project. After that, it’s meant to be social.

Weekends are also a little iffy. Part of it is because I might go visit my cousins. The other part is to go out and see the world. But why do I want to make it iffy. What are my goals while I’m here? Growing the business is a big one. Connecting with people is a big one, exploring the world is a big one.

And I feel like all of these things can happen if I start creating more clear plans for the business. What are the different sprints I can work on? What is required to make those sprints happen? How does it impact the future of the business in both the short and long run? How can some of the subtasks be taken care of my a VA of some sort?

Once I have that clarity, being able to get those sprints done will become much easier which gives me more time to celebrate my wins by going out more often.

Who knows, maybe if I have more clarity on what needs to happen in order for the sprint to be a success, then I will be able to wake up and not fall back asleep right away. In the perfect world, I’d be sitting down and working on the sprint by 8 and finish by 930. Then I get ready and head off to the office for the 11 meeting. This doesn’t give me any time to do anything else in the morning besides meditating for 30mins and some sort of exercise.

I intake new knowledge to and from work but to sit down with a book is also helpful. Let’s say I get home by 8pm. I can get another sprint done before 10 and maybe that’s when I should be closing down the laptop and getting ready for bed with a book.

It would then leave me 30mins after my sprint to engage with others on social.

And if I feel like I need more of that time, then I probably need to do it at work.

Let’s say that I’m able to get a decent sprint in 1030 – 1230. Then I’m able to get sprint 2 done by 4pm. And if it’s a quiet day, another sprint done by 630. Maybe I can reward myself with social time after each sprint. 15-20mins would mean I get 2 blocks of those time (first sprint’s reward is lunch with someone). Which is then more than enough to take care of social engagement.

And social engagement is simply a question of knowing how to ask the right questions – another thing that requires planning to get the most out of it.

And if I don’t need both times for social, I can turn one of those to a 10x workout. In fact, I think I should do that.

So I guess the answer to the happiness question is to spend more time thinking about the sprints that I want to accomplish.

In other words planning = happiness.